Today..

there's more drama in my life than ever.
I also got rid of my fear to light a lighter.
I went to the second wake within six months.
I went to the second wake of the year.
I went to the third wake of my entire life.
my heart feels very numb.

Tomorrow..

I'm going to the third wake within six months.
I'm going to the third wake of the year.
I'm going to the fourth wake of my life.
I think I'm devoid of feelings already.

Will be heading down to my most hated place on earth (Mandai Crematorium) next monday and tuesday consecutively! Not fun at all.

I don't feel the christmasy mood alr. What a way to end 2009.

i've been a complete bitch to M today im really sorry but i haven't got the guts to man up and apologise to her. well she was so contradictive it pissed me off real badly as well. aye aye but still, shldn't have been so rude! lotsa ♥ M love you for life!

anyhow, ham came over today and we had the time of our lives eating ruffles hahaha in record time! say, lesser than an hour? i'd usually take days to finish it on my own. so it was transferring of lotsa videos and stuff.

im gonna like re-watch all my korean vids vienny burned for me in the past!! dbsk-xman, suju fullhouse and all. really wanne watch fc shoot dori the most but i can't seem to find the discs!! shall watch it online then but im like lazy to load vids. plenty of dramas to watch and stuff!!

my holidays are gonna be over real soon! bummer!!

yes yes yes xlb xlb xlb tmr!! finally man. i haven't had yums xlb in ages!! my brother's gonna be back tmr. ten days have whizzed past so quickly!! im gonna miss the quiet nights i have starting tmr!! definitely gonna quarrel and shite which i kinda missed when he wasn't around. but im alr feeling sick just by thinking of all the quarrels we're gonna have. how dumb!

tht idiot boy better get me gold stuff!! its freaking europe twice for him and zilch for me. I FAIL. kaythksbye!

With my dad around, I seem to make decisions so much quicker! So.. I finally got my bb!! Yay! Sold away ny e63 at 180 and got momma a new phone at 160. Then to m1 to get my curve 8520 for only 128! So its really worth it haha! I think the next time I chage phone, it'd be two years from now and not a yearly thing alr cause its my second time changing it this year and within six months at tht! Sad but happy with my awesome purchase for now yay happy pie! Kay sleepytime! G'night pies!

given a chance to change phone now but am stuck in a terrible delimma.

bb bold damn ex so its definitely out, storm's touch screen eww, and curve 8900 is not being carried in m1 anymore! even the distributors as well. sooooooooooo annoying. only choice is bb curve 8520 but like a lousy.

i've been dying to get a bb since last year!! what now? just get the 8520? but i don't wanne get it then regret. walau damn sad!! seriously. maybe i shld just stick to this dum dum e63. but then again, the bb's seriously tempting to get!! maybe i'll go to m1 and check out what other phones they have first. but priority's wifi, torchlight and korean input text!! which only leaves me with a few choices..

how now brown cow?

I think all X are assholes and seriously, I am over it now whatever. Dunzo!

you know life's really fragile when its gonna be the second wake you're gonna attend soon in days, weeks or even months within the year. in short, its really soon.

its gonna be the third one that im attending in my entire 19 years of existence. seriously seriously sucks. i cannot imagine going through any of such trauma ever again! why must people ever die anyway? can't we have immortality?

c'est la vie, so carpe diem.

now im all tired and very unmotivated to do my reports due in friday! reports because there's two due!! wahhhhh seriously school's damn depressing. this is the final semester with the best timetable ever cause its damn slack but nooooooo im in school most of the time cause of the various projects. how sucky. there's deadlines to meet every single fucking week. i've had enough of this shite! damn stressed know seriously.

cannot fucking wait for graduation to come.

okay i've procrastinated too much! promise to do my work after my bath!

omgawd yay mommy just called me they're at west coast now and gonna buy me the yums meepok!! but crayfish's sold out! soooooo.. it'll only be prawns and scallop! but its good enough!~ happy only!! :)

kay bathe, eat, WORK!!

i totally freaked out when i was in the lift just now. the lift at my place only has access to levels 1, 5, 9 and 12. i live on the 13th floor.

so anyway when i was going up, it suddenly stopped at level 9, alarm going off, then it dropped down and shook a lil'. i was like omgawd totally freaking out alr. luckily i was on the phone so i had someone to calm my nerves! it all happened so quickly! suddenly went up to 12th floor. but it was stuck for so long and it didn't open at all!

i was alr on the verge of crying man! i was alone and i've always had one of those fears tht the lift may just drop all the way down and i'll die of heart attack! then i pressed the alarm and the door finally opened!!

seriously seriously scared me shiteless. it'd better not happen to me again. im told mommy to call the town council but she didn't tsk! i shld do it on my own then!!

when i told nana my story, she laughed at me! she wasn't scared when she was stuck there before! im sucha wuss huh?

the stomach flu has hit me once again! i was suffering in so much pain ytd. feeling better now but still having diarrhoea. how crappy! aah anyway i suspect its the food from swissotel causing this! but nothing happened to my family, only me! maybe my stomach's weaker now. have been getting stomach flu yearly since sec three! coupled with fever at tht! thkfully no fever this time! or i'll feel worse Xinfinity!!

anyway the dad's D&D at swissotel this year sucked. theme was so-so. everything was just so normal. to think they put in nine months of effort and the results they got weren't so fantastic. but we still gotta thk them for spending so much time organizing such an event!

frankly, food really sucked. like so damn lousy. i think the zhi char stall near my place serves better food! oh there's gonna be dinner this sat at the empty grass patch under my block!! a yearly affair. the food's definitely gonna be so much better!

the toilet there also stinks to high heaven! so much for being a five/six star hotel! gross much!! i don't wanne go next year alr!! blah. just saying.. everything at swissotel has deteriorated so badly, think they shld do something bout it!

nuff said-

goes by the name of sharlene tan
extremely plus-sized
family comes first friends second
adore monkeys so damn much
thinks that zac(efron) hottie is hot
likes eating currypuffs cold with hot milo
absolutely hates speaking cheena yuck pui
loves to annoy people
sucker for zac hottie look-alikes
chace crawford, jesse mccartney, cody linley
omgawddddd, am a total bitch
acts like a bimbo at times, a smart one
-nuff said